Fear of Failure

Guest Post on The Mighty

Yesterday I wrote a guest blog post for The Might which is a blog geared towards family members and people challenged with disabilities and other medical conditions. This is the first blog I've written as a guest blogger and I hope to continue sharing my story with a wider audience. The blog provides an overview of my PCT hike so for those of you who have followed my blog from the beginning might not read anything new, but I did share a few new pictures.

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Strength to Weakness

I wasn't even hiking. I was just standing next to the trail, packing up my few belongings after a short break when my backpack tipped over and fell into the inside of my left knee. I almost yelled out loud when I felt a pain shoot through my knee. It only lasted for a second or two, so after cinching down my pack I started hiking. Everything seemed fine, but at certain moments if my footing was just slightly misplaced the pain would shoot through my knee and I'd loose most of the strength in my left leg. I soon realized the pain originated from the same muscles that I strained in the first two days of my hike.

The Erosion of Doubt

For the past week I have labored over all of the final preparations for my PCT hike.  I finished preparing 104 dehydrated dinners which were added to two dozen different resupply boxes.  I was meticulous.  I counted calories per day, miles per day, and calories per ounce.  They say the devil is in the details, and it’s true.  The details became overwhelming, and the stress began to accumulate on my shoulders. Slowly stress began to make my body ache, and naturally, doubt joined the party. How could I hike from Mexico to Canada if I’m achy before I even start.  The odds seem stacked against me from the beginning.

Luckily, Love over comes Doubt every time.